Have I told you lately?

Have I told you lately how difficult Christmas is for me?  The anxiety and stress levels just rise like crazy for me when I start to think of the financial burden and the feeling that I am inadequate.  I'm sure that I should go to counseling for this.  Maybe there is a phobia out there that I can say I belong to.  I know that my children don't require much and this feeling of inadequacy comes from me but I just can't help it.  My wife and I are pretty lucky to have the kids we do.  They are some of the most mature and responsible children I have ever been around and I'm pretty sure I am biased about it but aren't you supposed to be when it comes to your children?  I was explaining my feelings to Alisha the other day and she gave me some wonderful advice.  Here it is in its purest form: "don't worry about it".  Now seriously how could I go wrong with that kind of advice!  I took it to heart and for the last few days I have tried to change my thoughts and feelings about this time of year and I have finally come to a conclusion.  I suck at change. 

Last night my 17 yr old son, Keaton, had a choir concert at the high school.  he is a pretty good singer and while Alisha and I were sitting there listening it took me back to my high school days when I sung in the
a cappella choir.  I went to Bear River High School and Carl Ashby was our director.  I loved that class and when I looked at my son up there singing he looked so much like me when I was his age.  I had alot of good friends and experiences in choir and I am grateful for the experiences.  Maybe I need to be more grateful for all that I have.

Isn't that what this season is all about?  Being thankful for what you have and who you have in your life instead of worrying about being inadequate...  hmmm, I guess I have more things to think about.  If I don't get on here before christmas let me say merry christmas or happy holidays to anyone that reads this.  And to my wife that I know will read this, you have made my life complete.  Enjoy the diamond earrings that will be under the tree.